The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud.

today for the first time in my life, i experienced what it was like to feel hypo. hypoglycaemic that is. in the midst of topping up rounds in the wards today, i felt a combination of the above symptoms and all i wanted to do was squat down and curl into a ball.

you have ----------. said a doctor while i was recuperating in a seat beside him. gave a nervous laugh as reply. coz nothing was processing in my brain.

had a second episode in a different ward. have never felt like this before. today's my first rotation at orthopaedics and surgery. pls don't let me appear weak in front of the pharmacist. because i am so not one of those fainting women. and it isn't like i didn't have breakfast because i had extra today. extra bread. extra cup of milk. weird.

but i'm glad cherie's over at cgh for an exchange! reminds me of school all over again. trooped out to lunch. can't wait for tomorrow! gonna try the fermented red noodles soup thing cherie had. vinegar-ish. yums!

and i normally hate house music. but the song daul kim posted on her last blog post sounds extraordinarily awesome.



i miss school. i miss my life years back. i miss the comfort. but i wouldn't give anything for the last couple of years as well. it's just a low point right now agnes. it would pass.

it may be me

but right now it's all you

i wish you would disappear

do something right. make us happy.

made an impromptu trip down to little India tonight with niron to get a punjabi suit for his bro's wedding..went a bit goggle-eyed at the jarring colours and freely used embellishments of the suits..decided to settle for a very very basic one as I foresee it being stored in the depths of my wardrobe after the do..

Objective settled, we decided to go grab a quick bite while the suit was being altered. Left niron to settle our dinner as it was his tuft afterall. Wasn't expecting much but the place he brought us to was pretty good!


had my all time favourite Kashmiri naan!!


as well as paneer butter masala and papadum..love them loads too!


it's been a long time since we hung out..haven't been in the same rotation as him since the start of pre-reg. Had a good time just chatting..and we missed you joy..especially all the time the three of us spent tgt in Nepal and Bangkok..I so wanna go back to the fish tail lodge in pokhara..whispered to the place that I'll return one day with someone impt...

And little India meant taking bus number 23..thought I'd be super emo-ed out after the ride..but surprisingly there was none at all...owellss it's been some time I guess...

Shall head to bed right now..pretty tired as usual..saw this at outpatient and the little cartoon piggy and cow put a big smile on me!



i thought our feud was over. apparently not so. i shouldn't have let my guards down so easily. just wanted the family to not put on any additional weight no longer.

the week in a few pictures.

lovely unity pharmacy night. the food was good as was the company. thanks mel for the invitation!


dinner with car and andrea at the bark cafe. really nice windy place to relax and chat. have the weirdest craving for salmon so much these days.


whipped up some fried eggs and leftover fish, chicken, pork from the fridge. yummy comfort food.


and i came up with a poster for the year-end party at my workplace. loveee it!


my 5 week stint at outpatient is over. i'm really gonna miss the place. have grown to love the place and its people.

fell asleep right after my bath. the next time i was conscious, the clock read 11.15pm. i was like woah dinner's over?

my mum said to go cook some instant mee. was thinking nah it's late better not to eat too heavily.

ended up scuffling down bread and cake from tomorrow's breakfast as well as two extra bags of chips. NOT GOOD. i hope nobody notices the two bags gone. yikes!

now i can't slp because i'm too MSG-overloaded....just got off the phone with joy. it's a ripe ol' time of 4.30am in the morning..shall just spend time with bitbit and antm in bed!

this week went past faster than i imagined. but it wasn't all good. i felt constantly tired ALL the time. it's worrying me. i'd fall aslp before 10 every night. like a clockwork mouse that ran out of all its winding.

tuesday started great. saw a kitten lying beside the lolly headed kitty at the bottom of my flat. was a little too slow snapping the pic haha i was laughing my head off when i saw it.


was almost home when i called my mum and made an impromptu trip to town where we had an awesome dinner at the food opera place. chicken rice and ngoh hiang again. and the main aim of the trip to town? haagen daaz was on specials at isetan scotts! tooted back with 4 tubs. of which i must have only had 5 spoonfuls. momo and the bee are going at them at an amazing quick rate.

and then it was friday where i had my presentation. whoo one more down. had ce talk early in the morning and tutorial late into the evening as well. so i was super bushed by the time i met up with the 19 guys for parathaaa. but it was still great fun. haven't seen sher for the longest time ever. and just look at alex and titus' pose. hilarious!


so today's family foodie haunt was at chinatown market. had ngoh hiang yet again but it was goood. had the usual satay bee hoon, char kway teow, popiahs and almond/sesame paste desserts.

then our dad whisked us off to sentosa to show us the new upcoming coasters..


and the faboo houses around sentosa cove. would i ever earn that much money in my life to get me one of those!


have a little ocd. but as we learned during the sat sesh, it's not one until it persists. so go away little ocd. and i need me some fairy dust to bring me through the week. but there's plenty to go round, so good week ahead everyone!



while giving bitbit a bath this afternoon, i found a growth on her hind leg. i'm not going to get all paranoid and edgy yet. but i'm worried. and when i'm worried, i junk food bomb myself. not good.

today must be the worst monday in a while. argh!

i think runs are bad for me. it gives me an excuse to eat too much before them and sleep too much after. coz that's just what i did.

met the 19 people and had popeyes for dinner and prata (again!) for supper on saturday. was mighty full after popeyes but was thinking heeeck i'm running tomorrow anyways. haha and it's the guys' turns to feel body conscious. alex kept showing us his tummy. or what little there was of it. haha..reminds abit of someone ain't it khor khro dile??

after the run today, met up with car, piled ourselves with tubfuls of swenson's ice cream and jumped into her car for some macgriddles at good ol's macs. somehow, macD brekkie on a sunday morning seemed like the most natural thing to do.

after i got home to clean up and grab a change of clothing, it was like engine shut down all the way. headed out for the family sunday lunch food haunt. fell aslp in the car before my dad even turned out of the car park. woke up to find myself at tiong bahru market. fell aslp again the moment i buckled up when we headed to gramps. fell asleep the whole time at my grandma's. fell aslp again on the car ride home from grandma's. 'agnes' snoring!' whispered bernice in the car. THAT I HEARD. came home and guess what..yea i fell aslp. til' i heard that dinner was ready. managed to stay awake after dinner for a little while. but by 10pm, somehow my feet found its way to bed and i was out like a log again.

too much sleep..too much! i hated how much of the weekend i wasted on sleep. now that work's started, my weekends are waay too precious to spend it on sleep.

and because i've been missing these guys too much, i decided to dig up the drafts from long ago. so here's more of KL.

left off at the night out at the skybar. lianey pooks joined us soon after, bearing a cake for mel!


birthday cake number 2, if the huge pao the night before counted as one heh..







haha, parry made some comment about being abused and shouldered by mel...


we stayed til midnight for the snack bites. which was beehoon in chinese takeout boxes.



wheepyy my favourite shot of the trip!


everyone was bushed after. i've never expected to see anyone look so uninterested at pratas haha..joy and mel don't kill meee!


i just scrambled down loads of cheesecake )): the bakerzin cheesecake promotion was ending so my mum bought the entire cake, split it into half. so one half is in the refrigerator, the other half's in the freezer. and the frozen one tastes awesome! okay here's to a week of detox. before i meet up with car and andrea for the buffet next week. lovely week ahead everyone! it's november!

happy birthday ps lim! and happy halloween y'all! just last year we were stuffed with awesome dimsum and racing through the pelting rain somewhere around 4am with our butterfly wings. i miss you guys and our crazy spontaneity...

started the non-essential carb-loading earlier in the night. though it was more like an excuse to pig out. and excuse the eyebags and lack of colour. even my trusty blusher is not enough to de-zombify me. met the carz for murtabak. it's been too long.


craving settled. we moved on to ikea and giant. it's like mandatory to get the hotdog bread no matter how stuffed you are. )): but one thing mutual is the love for the blast of pine wood smell that you breathe in the moment you step into ikea.

car's embarking on her afternoon of baking tomorrow so she had to get ingredients from giant. i just love grocery shopping!

it's raining yet again on halloween this year. gonna clean myself up and head to bed with greys. many people warned me bout the onslaught of emotions but strangely there's placidly none. guess there's still unsaid stuff but we're both skirting the topic. we should stop placing everything in limbo.

right loads of work and finally meeting them 19 guys again. can't wait for the catch up. but right now. rest!

am in need of sleep very badly. whilst my dad gave me a lift home from the hospital, i fell aslp and was nodding all over the seat. the journey took just 5 minutes so usually i'll chat to him. but i was that tired today.

couple of pictures and i'm off for my much needed sleep. had another drug co sponsored dinner at marriott this time round. was craving for jap food so i gave a little whoop when i saw that the starters comprised of maki and sashimi. (((:


my family trooped down to the nearby mall for fish & chips a couple of weeks ago. i'm craving for fish & co's lemon butter sauce. it's so awesome. and i wouldn't have known there was such a sauce if not for sab!


and our sunday lunch foodie haunt was to maxwell market coz my family saw the ngoh hiang stuff on some tele show and they all wanted to have it.


shepherd's pie sitting in the oven, with my mum's delicious chicken filling. the hearts are done by the bee.


and speaking of food. last night i woke up at 3am because i felt soo hungry. sat at the dining table and the only thing there was donuts from the donut factory. fell back into bed and slpt so soundly after.


just spent the entire night looking at recipes. breah....

on the other hand, i spent the earlier part of the night at a drug co sponsored talk with a few of my colleagues. it's lovely to get to know them better..and the food's not too bad at all. i need to learn how to cook baked prawn with cheesy cream sauce!

and that was how i woke up to find the world on a sunday morning. gentle thunder rumblings with the lightest of rain. wonderful weather for breakfast and the morning papers.

so i discovered a wonderful accompaniment to the fluffy kueh bahlus. honey. and my mum just bought this lovely version of leatherwood honey.


here's how the weekend went. saturday saw my dad dropping my mum off for her trip to malaysia and me for the human nike race. had a banana in the car prior to the run.


the banana on top of the breakfast combi was a little too much and i kept regurgitating the food while running. not good. kept smelling banana. at the end of the race, i was presented with a banana at the finish point. acks! it was promptly abandoned minutes later at a little corner.

came home, cleaned myself up and fell into a deep slumber which felt so good. but it pretty much forecasted the rest of my weekend as well. the run zapped most of my energy so much so that i spent most of saturday and sunday napping.

went to meet bee on saturday night in town because she told me of schu's half-price off promotion.


their lovely birthday decor. if i ever had to plan a birthday party again, i would totally enact this ceiling covered with balloons decor.


bee also showed me this lovely bookstore at ION. they have the most wonderful diaries there. i'm so totally eyeing a couple of the 2010 planners.


and the infamous queue for the jap octopus balls shop was significantly shorter so we had to try it. and it's vunderful! haha..crispy on the outside and soft on the inside. i burned my tongue while being too greedy though.


and bitbit's been a huge fan of our snacking as well. she loves my current comfort food. honey Ohs, which my sis and i are consuming at an alarming rate.


she loves chocolates as well!


and we may not be the wealthiest family around but i love how my mum adds little bits of affordable luxury into our lives. it made my day when i discovered cornflower prints on the toilet paper!



yesterday my mum came back from malaysia bearing goodies galore...muruku, durian of course and my new favourite fruit dragonfruit. don't ask me why i have no idea why it's so appealing as well!

in addition, she brought back two huge boxes of kueh bahlu and it's sooo good.


alright shall leave another picture of the fluffy moist little ones..have a good sunday!



i think i overdid the carb-loading bit a little too much..so now here i'm sitting before my laptop with a tummy as distended as a two year old's. but heck after a whole load of change of schdules, i managed to take leave for the run later on. have to be up by 5.30am..wish me luck!